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LOL.. somedays I really feel like that's all I'm saying; however, since I have no one to talk to til the kids get home from school... better to type it here than talk to myself >.< =D right? lol.

So as a control freak... yes, I admit it, it's like - OBVIOUS in some area's of my life. I dun know, should I rephrase that to be a "LAZY" control freak? I have learned to let SOME things slide or I would be MORE insane than I already am... rofl. Like, its easy to not care about the dishes while I'm downstairs, AWAY from them =]. When I'm done here and wander up there - it will totally annoy me. Like I TOTALLY hate my family room (orange carpet, things PILED everywhere, nowhere to sit); BUT, that's where my nice 42" TV and the Wii are :[ hmm. I really LOVE my children but do as every parent and have to figure out how to let them make their own mistakes =[ - UGH - hardest one of all, even if I wasn't a control fanatic. You know the times, family, friend, whoever - when you just want to grab someone and shake them? Yeah, lol.

For those interested, my girlfriend is still in the hospital but out of ICU. I'm hoping she gets to come home soon but she was in horrid shape so not sure when that will be. umm, k, guess I'm done =], really nothing "interesting" on this end. Enjoy the snow! ha ha

Back to the norm.... ewwww!

School starts tomorrow - YAY! oh, did I say that? Booo. HA! I love my kids and love being able to not start work until they all get up when school is out - but I can do without the bickering and the forgetting that I DO WORK and cannot take them everywhere during vacation. =[

So I want to end on a GOOD note for this blog spot -therefore, I'll get this one outta the way. Just interesting the way life works. I'm sure we all have people that we trust and THINK that we know, only to find out later - you were SO far off in left field! Unfortunately it happens to all of us. I really feel bad for those it happens to that are TOTALLY blindsided - husbands and wives, that just kills me - best friends with other intentions, why would they do that to someone? Last month was filled with secrets not told, than revealed regarding friends and their lives. Just makes me sad to think that people do that to each other, thankfully some people are very forgiving. An incident happened to me just the other day, to where I found out someone had been lying to me for over a year- HAHA AFTER they said that they had never lied to me - gotta love it! I really thought I would be hurt and angry, but I think I've done enough praying over this situation in the past 6 months that the Lord's just telling me, it's okay - see how messed up they are? I put you there for a reason. Isn't that a kicker! LOL. I honestly have no feeling regarding what the person did, one way or another - I just look back at my own actions and think WOW - I never stop being naive and a dolt do I? LOL - On facebook, I took a test: Which Pixar character are you? I was DORY! yeah, brainless ditsy me - I believe it said trusting and naive - well, I just proved them right =]. However, it also said that its not a bad thing to be those things. Someone needs to trust people and you never know who will prove you right and deserve that trust and change your life forever. =]

So - ending on COOL news - just like EVERYONE else in Utah it seems, we got a Wii for Christmas! It actually came on New Years Eve cuz by the time we got back from Disneyland they were all sold out. =[ - We have purchased 2 games beyond what came with it (sports) - so we have Cars and Guitar Hero, World Tour. We saw Guitar Hero, Legends of Rock - ooooooooooh , I WANT I WANT I WANT - LOL - but it's a freaky $89!!!! I think I'll wait til next bonus. =P Yes, if you were wondering - Guitar Hero is MY Wii game. I proudly get a 92% on the singing - Ha ha - only cuz they don't judge the quality of voice - just if you can hit the note!

Another Day,... a different Mood - lol

If I didn't know myself better, I'd think I was maniac depressive - lol. No, I think turmoil and stress just overcome and what I USED to be able to cover up, I no longer can. Honestly, I am the same person, I was just REALLY good at hiding it before - some of you have second thoughts about me ? ROFL In ways I believe it is good that I can't hide it anymore, I have to deal with things and not let them fester like I used too and it's probably healthier. Just bear with me, I will soon be able to replace my mask >] - ha ha.

Wow, this will be the first "different" New Years Eve in - forever! We used to go hang out with friends who had kids our age but they like us didn't like to wander out tonight, so we stopped. After my dad died, my mom, sister Reba, and even my niece Cherisa would come over for New Years Eve to eat munchies, play games - forget the time and suddenly somewhere after midnight say, "OH, Happy New Year!" - LOL! This year, isn't bad, it will be really fun - just different =]. No mom, no sister, no niece BUT Darran, Sharon and their kids =] - cousins for the holiday - FUN! And with the installation of the Wii - lol they should stay outta my hair as Darran and Sharon head off to celebrate their anniversary. The kids aren't too far apart in age - except for Anthony but he has an optional Youth activity with the church so he's covered. =]

Oops, they just arrived! HAPPY NEW YEAR!