PCMC for Spring Break

Since Ben was 18 mo old, he's gotten strep throat atleast 4 times a year. Poor thing, after 12 yrs of that we finally told the Dr's - PLEASE take out his tonsils! Insurance requires a recorded 6 visits within the year, obviously that wasn't too hard. He misses around 3 to 4 days of school each time he develops strep; we have A and B days; therefore, it is like he is missing almost 2 weeks! Homework is dreadful, he falls behind and he never does get caught up by end of term. His grades and his self esteem have suffered majorly for this - it happens only once a term if we are lucky - twice if it's normal.

Well - Monday morning we headed down to Riverton to the PCMC outpatient clinic. I had no idea there was a clinic other than in SL but it's VERY nice. Also, since it is PCMC you are treated extremely well no matter your child's age. Surgery was only 30 min!!! WOW ! We arrived at 8:30 am and were heading home by noon....very slick. I thought I was sneaky taking pic's of him but I guess not sneaky enough since he sent me a text last night asking for the pic's to be sent to him so that he could post them on his facebook, lol. Dizzy or not, as we were in process of leaving what is he doing? Texting his gf - what a typical teenage boy - shakes head and rolls eyes. They really don't consider themselves a couple - they just both know that they like each other so they text and IM on fb.

Before surgery on Monday, Dean took Ben grocery shopping on Saturday night so that he could pick out his "soft" foods for the next 2 wks. My freezer has ice cream and ice packs - a teacher brought over popsicles :) and my fridge has pudding, eggs, peaches, applesauce - all the nice soft stuff he loves. His throat hurts (duh), and his pain pills are trying to give him constipation (ick), but on the plus side he has a note from the Dr stating he is absolutely NOT to participate in gym for the week when they head back to school. Yeah, this teacher already loves us - hmm, we won't go there.

So Ben is stuck at home between bed and the couch for the entire spring break - what are the other two up to? Anthony is spending it between my sister's house (working) and Shannyn's (hanging out)....Olivia is being typical and jumping between whomever's house she can on that particular day. She would have liked to have been at her cousin's all week but they ended up with spring break a week before ours - stupid school districts. I think I'm going to use this blog as the family one - after all it is "ztroop"blogspot....and I will switch over for the more personal stuff to my book blog. It was supposed to be a book I was writing but it is very difficult to write about something that you are still processing :D. My book one has been closed off for a long time so if you are interested, let me know.

Paix

Book

I think I shall start the rewrites on my book and start adding in the self help stuff. Hmm - wish me luck!

Oh yeah - I would LOVE to hear from you ladies about overcoming your individual adversities and how if you are willing to share :) I think it would add alot and I am a firm believer in learning by example and building on it.

Resentment

Last weekend hit me like a sledgehammer. It had been two, almost three weeks since I had been given an ultimatum at work...start incorporating yourself into being in the office or.... yeah, you get the idea. I was on week two of having given my non-contested notice of resignment with one week left. Needless to say, after doing the same thing for 14 yrs, the anxiety was beginning to build. I never thought that I was one who couldn't handle change; however, the last four years have proven to me that certain change is a little too much at times....this was one of them. Therefore, last weekend, I woke up Friday thinking, "great, sore-throat, sinuses draining...ugh", but went on my merry way doing my own little merry things that needed to be accomplished. Friday night I started to cough - this thing hit me WHAM! I was coughing, stuffy to where I couldn't catch my breath/swallow inbetween. Yeah, not a great feeling for an asthmatic, I think it even worried my husband who I was keeping awake. >.< I rested that day and Sunday I took an essential oil "Black Pepper" bath. Eyah, the smell was pretty epic but I took a shower right after so no one else suffered with me. =] The black pepper helps with muscle tighteness and your lungs. I felt TONS better afterward, did too much because of it and stayed in bed most of Monday - good grief! Monday I took a bath in my essential oil "Forgiveness", it didn't help my lungs but did help me to feel much calmer. I love aromatherapy can you tell? I made it through my last three days of work - barely. I soooooo wanted to call in sick and all my co-workers who are getting the same raw deal wanted me to, even without knowing that I truely was. Anthony and I had dr appts on Thursday so I actually did take wahoo a whole 1.75 hrs on my final day. The next day, Friday, I went to see Sarah, my reflexologist. My appt with her will be the majority remainder of this post.
My previous visit with Sarah zoning my feet took over and hour and that was just one foot. >.<>.< bah. That was the owwy part - than she spent a lot of time on the bottom of my foot where she commented on my being "very pissed off"...didn't tell me specific body parts though...interesting. Than she got to the top of my foot, around my ankle and spent a lot of time there...ah, that makes sense - my lymphnodes. So...what was it that made me sick? (which I still am btw - I can think myself into it but not so quickly think myself out.) Resentment. Yep, that big ugly word up at the beginning...the one I just kind of sat and stared at. We all hate to be told we are doing this to ourselves, we hate to be told we have to change or continue getting sick and causing worse illnesses and the worst? it cycles. You feel bad that you're doing this to yourself, therefore, you get upset with yourself which is what is causing it to begin with...get the picture? I'm not going to write up all my resentment issues here, maybe somewhere a little more private. Maybe I'll make a copy of them to set on fire and release but definately keep a copy so that I can remind myself of the things I need to work on, watch for, and change.