Just Something...

Ok saw one of my Dr's today...going off the estrogen, he doesn't think its helping (duh)and FINALLY listened to me about not sleeping and that it isn't the anxiety its my body not knowing how to shut down and relax. So I'm trying Lyrica - keep your fingers crossed - here's hoping.

So I have a some friends that are having some interesting times...yes, I know, we all having interesting times in our lives. However, I like to notice theirs more just cuz than I can forget myself for awhile =]. Anyways..I digress..I have some friends that could be miniature and life size of each other in so many ways; I love them both dearly however; one has left my life but I hope the other since he is older and somewhat wise ;] will stay for a long time. So I was thinking about this friend as he was relating his personal anguish over something- yeah I'm a mom through and through, too sensitive my mom used to say - and there was nothing I could do or say. I hate that, only crappy thing about being an online friend - hard to truely enjoy the great moments or comfort in the sorrowful ones. Anywho...it was one of those nights >.<



If A Bear It Be....

What do we see of a grizzly? all gruff and growl and might?
A life of hardships, toil and strife? or a simple urge to protect and fight?

The brightness of the warm sunlight, signals a first fight of might.
for nothing is seemingly easy.... every detail of life has its plight.

Yet hidden beneath the fur, the growl and the grim..
is a lonely bear just searching,
for the love that from kindness does stem.

Chance to take another look, at this growlsome bear,
soothe the anger and the the grief.. chance to see a teddy bear.

For every side has its opposite, in nature nothing but beauty grows.
Be wise and search through other eyes, for the man hidden in grizzly bear clothes.

kz (lil sis) 8/26/09

Busy Summer...almost over

I haven't blogged all summer...I'm sure no one is even checking it anymore - lol, that's okay. It has been an interesting summer to say the least. Those with facebook may have seen some of these pics..these were our summer in a nutshell. Not for a long time have we had cousins coming and going; multiple Terry family outings; Dean on business AND Scout Camp trips; and me just stuck in the middle =] okay that part is normal.

In June we got our baby bearded dragons...they are so much fun and its funny to see some people's reaction to them. People you would think would be fine with them actually FREAK OUT..ha ha. They've developed more personality and come into their own, yeah the rare golden dragon is the biggest and he has the most personality. He loves to stand up against the glass and watch the boys play video games or watch TV.

We've enjoyed having Terry and William, David and Mya and Abby here this summer. Its not great fun here as I'm always working in the office and can't take them places but cousins are here so they seem to keep occupied. =]

I counted the other day...I have 7 siblings, 35 nieces and nephews, and 25 great nieces and nephews and I think there are actually a few more of those on the way! Crazy...and only half the nieces and nephews are even of age to even be married >.<.

At the moment I am in the "30 and better than ever" category..next year I hit "40 and fabulous". Yup that's my goal to be fabulous= in better health, in smaller clothes =D, and drug free! Yay me.

29 and holding..........

So it was nice to get all the good Birthday wishes on Facebook =] thank you everyone. After a stressed, sleepless night the night before it turned out to be a rather nice, quiet, uneventful day. =]

Dean surprised me by taking 1/2 day off (I had taken the whole day)and coming home with white roses and a 2 ltr of Diet Coke... lol. But he ran the carpools for me which allowed me to sleep a little more and take a nice relaxing tub before the hecticness of kids coming home from school set in. Thanks sweety - it was wonderful. We went to dinner at Famous Dave's BBQ...OMHECK.... MANGO DIET COKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nom nom nom nom nom! and Brisket of course =D. I came home to my 'puter to find more well wishes from old friends which was a very pleasant yet shocking surprise. It made it a nice ending to my day.

Last night Boo and Sarah and Tristan showed up for a few days =] fun fun. Tristan is very adorable and TINY! lol, none of my kids were that small at 4 months! But that's nice for Sarah since she isn't very big either =]. We went to lunch with Susi and Reba over at Burger Stop, since I had told Sarah I would take her there. They have the BEST ice cream shakes next to Farr Ice Cream - nom nom.

I got some very nice pressies from my siblings and in laws =], thank you all, AND I FINALLY got my couch and book case!!!!! Heavens, I have furniture again! *e dances* nicer still, all my dad's books that we got from the estate are now upstairs, out of boxes, dusted and put away nicely. =] yay.