It's Easter

And I'm in an interesting mood so I will just say to all....
May the Lord bless and keep you, May his countenance shine down upon and May you receive a testimony of his love and sacrifice for this holy day. Happy Easter

She's Happy Now

Well, at 3:00pm this afternoon my little pirate friend gratefully passed from this life to the next. For someone in who social services was hiding, this little girl had 50+ people in the waiting room off and on for the past week, wanting to be there with her when she passed. I'm sure there were many more from the other side as well. I'm grateful to have met this sweet, special spirit while she was with us her few short 14 yrs - that's Anthony's age. She has taught me much - she left me pirate a big purple WIG (that I hate to see on ppl) with the message, "always be silly Gris". :) And she's right, my therapist even told me that I need to relearn how to "play" and not just video games or internet games but laugh and cry and get down and dirty. As you get older you get busy and forget and it's a precious thing to be able to "play", I will remember and honestly try. She taught me to open my mouth and not be afraid that I will offend someone. I used to be that way all the time and it got lost somewhere with the kids and work and life. I now can say, that my missionary work is online and I have about 5 ppl on my game I'm working on - or atleast taking baby steps with by talking religion, letting them ask questions, etc. And whoop started me doing that by her asking ME questions - she was here for a reason and many of us have felt it. I know she is happy, healthy and free now and I am so happy for her, she was in so much pain and so miserable here. Bless you sweety, now you are in angel in heaven as well as earth. Farewell.

Surprising

Isn't it interesting how little "unthinkable to others" things help boost our self worth and help us to forget our troubles? We've all seen the email or head the story on the email about how a kid stopping to help pick up someone's books and carry them home, saved a person's life.
Not that my life needed saving :) but my medicine definately was not working. When a knock came at the door at dinnertime and a little voice asked for Sis Zenger. When I showed up, one of my previous scouts stood at the door trying to hold back tears - he'd locked himself out of his house. As we went back and left a note for his mom on the door and he is now upstairs playing happily with my children, I felt grateful. Grateful that he would come to me when he was in trouble and seek my help and shelter. That seems kind of silly, but it is one of those things that just hits you every now and than - wow. I assume because I try to be the best I can be (somedays thats pushing it -lol) and you never know how others see you. You never know the impression, the feeling or the affection sometimes, that touches their lives. I was only his scout leader for 3 months, he is inactive - just got baptised actually - and he feels comfortable enough to come to me. That makes me smile, makes me feel good, and maybe puts me up a notch (towards myself) for this day. As I remind my kids, you never know who is watching, so be on your best behavior - it's worth it. :)