Be warned.....

Yep it's midnight again and here I am. Sure wish my brain would turn on in DAYLIGHT instead of midnight, oh wells. Be warned, cuz this is another "thinking" blog post. =] I was thinking about many things: my lesson coming up, relationships (hmm that deals with my lesson), the world today, blah blah blah. Also, had a really good conversation with a dear friend on IM. I came upon a word... so I decided to blog it.

Word for the day: ASSUMPTION: Something taken to be true without proof; presumptions or arrogance. WOW, I can I tell you that reading that definition really hit me? I never considered myself being ARROGANT when I assumed something, I actually figured myself naive. However, thinking about it, it's right. When you "assume" something you are arrogantly taking upon yourself what you "think" to be true, whether it is or not. WOW. Scary.

So before I came down to blog, I wrote my "journal" ha, I use it as a notebook, about things that "I" assume. Again, I am "assuming" that some of you may also have these idea's so I'm going to title it....

Assumptions or Beliefs?

When you say you love me........ I assume you mean it.

When you say that my family matters to you........ I assume they do and you won't
turn your back.
When we fight and you tell me not to turn away.......I assume that means that you
won't turn from me either.
When you are silent and not forthcoming........I assume I am in the wrong and wonder
why?
When you share your world with me..........I assume you want to be a part of mine.

When I am blessed with a sacred gift.........I assume the Lord wants me to nurture
it and watch it grow.
When you make promises........I assume your going to keep them, no matter what.

When I read too much into things............I assume I can no longer trust my own
deductions.
When you tell me I'm your friend........I assume all the responsibilities that go
with that and assume that you're doing
the same.
Hmm, When I go to bed...............I assume I will SLEEP!

Is it really WRONG to assume? are we arrogant or just too TRUSTING?

Tic.. Tac... TOES!

So you've prolly seen Reba's blog and seen this pic already =]; however, this one was my idea so I had to post it on mine! Yes we missed Denise; hopefully, her schedule will start becoming such that it works with the lunch ones or when Dany is around to help out with her kids. This lunch we sat at Wingers in Kaysville and looked at old family photo's that Mimi couldn't identify. We had a very patient, great waitress and she got her well deserved tip for letting us hang out.

Some of you may know this from personal experience with your mom's (if your last name isn't Terry that is >] )or from hanging out with some of your aunt's. Cherisa's first New Year's Eve with my family (which used to include Grandma and Reba) she got to witness it first hand - I'm really glad she did since she didn't grow up around Grandma. Dean's first experience was same - New Year's Eve after we were first married and in Nephi hanging out with Mom for the holidays. What is it? When we are TIRED and something strikes us funny, we laugh. I'm not saying giggle giggle or ha ha - I mean, tears pouring down your cheeks, can't breathe, weird noise making laughs! The problem is, ALL of the girls inherited this from Grandma! and even worse - it's CONTAGIOUS!! Once one of us starts, the others will follow. So, on that New Year's Eve with Cherisa, playing a game, I started, than Grandma, than Reba. Those watching can't help but laugh at us so it's a great time but it's VERY HARD TO STOP!! And usually once you do - you restart - vicious cycle - LOL!

So, if you read Reba's blog you know that one of those "giggle fits" happened at Wingers. Susan was retelling an email I sent (the night before when I sent it I did the same thing!) and she and I both started laughing! NOTE: Susan nor I get a whole lot of SLEEP AND Susan and I both have reactive asthma. So, we REALLY couldn't breathe once we started! To make matters funnier, the table across from us was filled with paramedics and firemen who kept glancing over. We were sure they were wondering if they needed to go get the oxygen! The toe pic was taken BY the Ambulance and again we ALL started giggling at Adult Women in a resturaunt parking lot taking off our shoes and taking pictures of TOES! When the paramedics came out we quickly dispersed afraid that they really WOULD get the oxygen out (since I was coughing and gasping - you know =P). Isn't it nice that you don't REALLY have to grow up? just older?

Dispensable vs. Loved

Isn't it nice to know, that where ere you go, you can just as soon be forgot? That no matter the toll or how high the pole, your just another soup in the pot. Put your hand in and give it a spin, doesn't matter cold or hot. When your hand comes out, no matter the spout, there's no hole to fill in your spot.

Yeah, ever have one of those days? My version of the poem, "No Indispensable Man" that my dad used to quote often. Of course, it is more eloquent but I don't have it memorized and felt mine also got the point across. =] There are times in your life that you WANT to be indispensable to SOMEONE atleast. Hopefully you've found that someone in your spouse, your parents, and your older children. There is no doubt that you would leave a hole in their lives if you were gone, one that no other could fill until you saw each other again in the eternities. That's the wonder and grace of the Plan of Salvation. That NEED we all have to be loved, cherished, and important to someone OTHER than ourselves. We may feel out of place in many different places in our lives but I really cling to the "maybe untrue" email that goes around.... (I don't know all of it) but something about: Someone out there loves you more than life itself, Someone out there thinks of you each night before they go to sleep, Someone out there would give their life for yours, Someone you don't even know cares about you, etc, etc. I can't remember it all but compared to being "dispensable" I'll take being "thought of" and "cared about" any day and hope for myself that it's not just a pretty saying - because I know for those I care about - it's definately true.

Give someone you love a HUG, they deserve it.