Duplicity

Interestingly enough there are days when some of the pettiness of my life doesn't seem to matter. I can delete contacts in my Msgr without feeling remorse or hurt or afraid that I might "miss" a non-exsistent msg. =] I like these days, I feel free. Free from the depression, free from most guilt, (ha ha) and free from stupidity. All of course emanate from me. My therapist and my hubby forever tell me it's the "perfectionist" in me - I don't like anyone mad at me, I feel like I should be able to fix it - and the "control freak" part of perfection gets depressed when people make their own decisions and don't respond - cuz they used to. =[ Hope that made sense. Anyways - I like days when I'm just me... not a perfectionist, not a control freak and think - so what, its their LOSS to cut me out of their life, instead of focusing on the hole it leaves in mine.

Ha ha - an example of my "perfectionism" : last night Dean, Olivia, and I went to Wal-mart for a few things. As we were leaving we, of course, left out the EXIT door - as another family was going IN the Exit door - ROFL. The mom, she must be a little like me - turned to me and said "pardon us, we use the exit to enter". I laughed with her and moved out of her way but Dean knew - lol. It did sound funny and I was grateful to actually hear someone say something like that. Than I did admit - that is a HUGE pet peeve of mine at Wal-mart - ROFL maybe one of the reasons I don't like to go there. Yes, I go in the Enter and out the Exit =P and I am slightly annoyed at those that deliberately do opposite. ha ha ha ha. In my eyes - why does Wal-mart even try? Pfft just take the stupid words off and all of us will be happy and slightly more bruised XD.