Good news first....its hot. It's freaking hot which I hope means that my gazillion tomatoes have turned red. Dean brought home about 10 last week and I've consistently eaten at least one whole one a day. :) I love garden fresh tomatoes, in fact I crave them during the season. You all may think this gross but don't knock it until you try it but my favorite tomato thing is sliced tomato on peanut butter toast - little bit of salt and pepper. Om nom nom....it mixes the salty with the sweet, add the pb protein and it's perfect! I should have enough tomatoes to make salsa and freeze diced tomatoes but I also intend to make tomato jelly. They make jalapeno jelly so why not? A tomato is atleast a fruit!
I'm blogging today cuz I feel I owe atleast one person an explanation. I need to see Sarah or something but it feels like I don't even take my medication these days. >.< I'm tired, I'm angry, I feel ugly and yeah, not the most pleasant person to be around. For this reason I have missed set dates with friends and feel that I will be missing other things for the next little while. I try so hard to keep my mask in place, to go along with what others what because I know that would be what my "normal" self would do and its what people expect. Hell I don't want to. I have been for most of the summer and I'm finding that I can't right now. I can function but I don't want to, but I do it anyways and than I suffer and if I can't control it long enough my family suffers :(.
So there is the explanation. The reason I haven't been blogging, the reason I haven't been cooking, the reason I haven't been on fb but to check on friends maybe once a day and than gone again. I don't want sympathy - just wanted it out there.
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I wish I could help, but unfortunately, I'm feeling the same way. Hang in there, and call me if you feel like talking. <3
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