My book excerpt

Yep, here I am again at 1:45 in the morning- lol, why can't some inspiration come at 10am? LOL, whatever. As I am NOT sleeping, dealing with a stupid medication change that's making me feel like I'm not ON med's - ugh- I'm sitting here trying to reconcile with myself. So I figured, one of these days, I'll take these excerpts and get to really writing my book.=]

Why are we so afraid to be loved? I mean really loved? Are we that unlovable? Are we that imperfect that we feel no other "unperfect" person could accept us with all our flaws? Friendships are not the easiest manouvered relationship but it should be easier than marriage. However, if you are married to your best friend, than you should have it somewhat easier. But should I ask, even when you are married to your best friend or just have a really close friend, when do you stop sharing yourself with them and why? My therapist told me that unless you are honest with yourself and your spouse/friend, you cannot be completely intimate. In this case, the intimacy is that of love - you cannot be fully "accepting" of the unconditional love that someone tries to give you, or for that matter you try to give yourself. We all have things that we would SO like to erase or forget in our lives. However, those things are how we learned, they are what have made us who we are today - that person someone wants to love. Yes, if we accept their love we are open to pain and hurt - but hasn't the Lord said that if you don't know those things, you'll never know happiness or true joy? Now, what do we do to start making it happen?

Excerpts from The Last Lecture

I went looking for a book to read at the airport/on the plane on the way to Minneapolis. I really wanted the 2nd Fablehaven but they only had it in hardbound - pfft, so I kept looking. I kept being drawn to this book and I have to tell you - it's WONDERFUL. I will recommend this book to EVERYONE to read, it's funny, inspirational and just a great read. In fact, many of you might find yourselves with it for Christmas =].

Think about it. If you've seen the TV show, you know that Kirk was not the smartest guy on the ship. Mr Spock, his first officer, was the always-logical intellect on board. Dr McCoy had all the medical knowledge available to mankind in the 2260's. Scotty was chief engineer, who had the technical know-how to keep that ship running, even when it was under attack from aliens. So what was Kirk's skill set? Why did he get to climb on board the Enterprise and run it? The answer: There is this skill called "leadership". ......He was the distilled essence of the dynamic manager, a guy who knew how to delegate, had the passion to inspire, and looked GOOD in what he wore to work.

I Love it - you guys really should read this.

Right Now

Yeah, it's taken me awhile but I finally sorta have the blog back to what it was. Dean was bugging me about the blog sites since that's our way of keeping track of most of you - so it's almost complete now. I'm still missing some people but for the most part I think we're good.

We hope to see most of you at the family reunion on Saturday, in Bountiful. Mimi is in charge and Dean will be taking the pic's with our fun new camera - so come by and say hi please.

I've been having horrid shoulder problems that have radiated down my arm into my forearm, under my arm in my breast, and now into my shoulder blades. So, trying to be good, I've been excercising - OH -HEY - I'm up to 45 min a day and 1 1/2 miles! Wahoo for me - I'll catch up to the rest of you sometime =P. Anyhow, I've also been seeing my chiropractor and massage therapist. I had a 2 hr appt last month and she left 2 bruises =0, but I had a 1 hr today and she focused only on my upper back. I think my WHOLE UPPER BACK is a giant Bruise! I went upstairs and laid down with Dean while watching Jay Leno and it HURT to lay down! Freak! Ya, nothin like having it feel like someone is seperating your muscles from your bones -it's so INVIGORATING! =0 NOT. I can feel it tensing up again so I'd better down some more 303 (herbal muscle relaxant), put some Cryoderm on (like bengay but Smells BETTER!), and try to sleep. LOL, good luck on the last one.