Friends

Yes, my last entry was a little strange for those that might not completely know me but typical of bouts if you are close. After 3 days of upped medication disasters, lol; no, its not better but I am trying to be.

I've always known that other people are a HUGE factor in contributing to depression. Mixed signals from friends can cause major lows; however, when you let them and they rally around you, I can only say, what a difference the day makes. I am one that firmly believes, always have, that people are placed in our lives for a reason. We are blessed when we understand that reason, even more so if that person is still around to show gratitude for. I have 33 nieces and nephews - ha ha, no wonder the too many right?- I love them all but just like with friends, you click with certain people and grow a little closer. My 3 lovelies, as I call them, none of whom I talk to on a regular basis - all either sent me a text or an email or a facebook on the same day last week. =D Just saying that they love me! Yep, I'm a sentimental boob but that was just COOL, and needed. The lord so answers your prayers through others.

Many of you are tired of hearing about my internet friends but in reality, they are the only friends I chat with on a daily basis. Therefore, they are a large part of my life at this time. Can I also say that for teenagers, wow, they can really shock me sometimes- =](in good ways). My two "adopted" boys Brandon and Tyler are teenagers, who on occasion, you forget are teenagers. Brandon's comment in-game once was if your his friend and you fall, he'll be there to pick you up and he lives up to his word - he's an amazing kid. Tyler likes to say he knows me and in fact, it's really eery as to how well he really does. Even though Ty doesn't believe in God, he's admitted that he can't deny there is a "recognition" of spirits between us. =] (he's learning) These boys have adopted me as well and with a 2 hr time difference, they will stay up with me when I've had a hard day - just to chat or help me get in a better mood. I have NEVER denied how truely blessed and watched over I am and I never will.

Just like my kids, friends bring a smile to your face if you let them. We simply have to stop denying them the blessing of why they know us and allow them to be there for us. I was so shocked and touched this week that I just had to share in closing my greatest comments received.....

Gris, you know, i think we need each other lol / Grisseh (10:27:53 PM):lol /Grisseh (10:27:59 PM):why you say that :-D / :well, you deal with me, and i (supposedly) help you with whatever problems u have... and you make this game more fun. Whatever i say / said when im mad, you deal with it and take me back, so thank YOU Grisseh - (this was Brandon I erased his AIM name for privacy)

And Tyler: what? but i WANT you around, stop taking those stupid (bleep)pills! watever is changeing you i HATE IT! nothing will ever turn me away even if i wanted to i couldnt you have been a huge part of my life and like family i can never stop caring about you.

Wow, isn't it amazing how teenagers can be, when you find "them" inside?