My pills must not work at all during a certain time of month, atleast that's what it feels like. No, I am not going to go to someone and tell them so they can give me more pills to take! Maybe I'll try something natural or hopefully soon I'll be able to excercise it away. =]
I believe that looking back can be a good thing; as long as you don't remain there. We are to learn from our history and past mistakes, not drown ourselves in them. I seem to be having that problem. I like the person I used to be, the person I am now seems to have too much crap she's holding onto and I am having a hard time making her purge it. I agree with the statement of "There's a reason why people in your past didn't make it to your future"....yet sometimes I have the hardest time letting go. Even reading how much they distrust me and hate me my memories are fond ones, happy ones, and filled with love. How do I not have hope when I am supposed to be filled with it? Lol...there's your brainteaser for the day. :D
Anthony assigned me one of his scripts to write...Hardwork. Well, yeah I know what hard work is, I expect 110% out of myself and atleast 80 or 90 from my kids on a regular basis. (ok I expect 100 by they give me 80 or 90 =P) Hard work is something you know, something ingrained in you, something you do out of respect for yourself and who your doing a job for. I don't want to simply make promises in a video that don't hold true to life...that's my mountain I need to get over. Hmm, he needs to finish these by (film in the can as they used to say) by the end of this month so that it doesn't conflict with his school work. Hmm...I might have an idea :D but I would welcome anyone else's as well.
So my ordeal atm is trying to figure out how during one week of the month I keep myself focused - on ANYTHING. It's very strange to actually "zone" out, I don't think I've ever really done that my entire life~! 0_0 weird. Idea's?
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